So that horrible horrendous treatment is just a day away. Before it starts there are a few important things I have to sort out. Like what to wear.
From tomorrow onwards what I choose to put on will be forever associated with chemotherapy.
I don’t really want to wear outfits that remind me of the things I’m missing out on. It’s almost as if I’ve closed the wardrobe door on my old life.
To get chemo-ready I’ve been internet shopping. What have I gone for? Baggy comfy leisure wear?
I don’t think so. I’ve bought a selection of bright chemo dresses.
Hopefully too they should stop me feeling like the sick patient that I’ll soon become again. Once it’s all over I’ll burn them. Okay in reality they’ll probably end up in a charity shop.
Chemo has a similar effect on what you eat. It can put you off certain foods. That’s not always such a bad thing.
Last time I went through this I was warned to steer clear of anything I loved. I took great pleasure eating chocolate and cake and all sorts of unhealthy stuff while hooked up to the drip.
My chemo diet didn’t exactly work out although I still can’t stand Danish pastries. And basil.
Chemo changes the way food tastes. Gradually you notice that your mouth starts to dislike all sorts of foods.
The toxic cocktail of chemicals leaves you with a metallic taste. Not great when you eat food with a high water content like fruit.
Yet I need to be really healthy now. Since the op I haven’t been too good. I’ve been trying to put back on the weight I shed in hospital.
Thanks to my stay in intensive care I lost three stone in about a week!
Yep that’s right, almost half a stone a day. It was the quickest diet I’ve ever been on. Not exactly good for someone who was seriously ill though.
I’m now back to my fighting weight and my body is ready for the onslaught of chemo. I’ve worked out all the super healthy foods I need to eat to boost my immune system and energy levels, the things that will really suffer.
But it’s much more fun focusing on the trivial details. After my red nails successfully helped me to feel good and look well, I’ve been thinking about what colour to paint them next.
I’ve decided that for chemo session number one my nails will be teal. It’s the colour of ovarian cancer awareness and so seems appropriate.
As my hair will be falling out sooner rather than later I need to work out what I’m going to do. For me I doubt that bald will be beautiful.
When I was treated for cancer ten years ago, the steroids I had to take with the chemo gave me a best-avoid-all-mirrors look. My face puffed right up.
I’m defiantly going to buy a wig. Well let’s make that three or four. I want to get one that looks like my hair right now. I also quite like the thought of becoming a blond or a red head at a moment’s notice.
I want to get all this done in the next few weeks before the chemo really kicks in so any more suggestions are welcome. Especially if it means I have an excuse for more shopping!